a public declaration...

How many times will I submit myself to your lies? To your words that flood over me and overwhelm me with insecurity and fear. How many times will I sing words to songs that I obviously don't believe as I let you...you control a part of me that you are not worthy of. You are not worthy of any part of me. Yet, I listen to your whispers....telling me to bottle it up, don't let Him know. Your failures, your fears, your insecurities...you'll only be mocked or made to feel like less than who you are. Protect yourself. Hide yourself...don't show your true self...what if...what if you're not loved? What if you're not liked? What if they don't think you're pretty enough or good enough? What if...what if...what if...what if....
I'm tired of the what if's!! I've had it with them....
I am chosen. I am loved. I am secure in that love. The One who loves me gave His all for me....what more could I ask of him? How much more would He need to do to prove His love? Nothing...absolutely nothing and I'd be a fool to ask Him to do anymore. So, no more of your lies...no more of believing that I am anything less than a daughter of the Most High God. Redeemed and bought with a price. Unworthy because of who I am, but worthy because of His sacrifice. My faults and failures are covered in His blood...covered in His love and they no longer leave a stain on who I am. I am being transformed...becoming new...and God loves me! He is for me. He is for me!!
God- help me to listen to you....let your voice be the loudest in my ears and in my heart. Help me believe what you say, what you've said in your word and to bring my whole self to you in everything. My hurts, my heartaches, my irrationalism, my broken pieces... everything! You created me, you love me and you are my healer, my Savior, my Lord and I give myself to you.

Psalm 13:5-6 But I trust in your unfailing love; my heart rejoices in your salvation. 6 I will sing to the LORD, for he has been good to me.

Psalm 16
1 Keep me safe, O God,
for in you I take refuge.
2 I said to the LORD, "You are my Lord;
apart from you I have no good thing."
3 As for the saints who are in the land,
they are the glorious ones in whom is all my delight.
4 The sorrows of those will increase
who run after other gods.
I will not pour out their libations of blood
or take up their names on my lips.
5 LORD, you have assigned me my portion and my cup;
you have made my lot secure.
6 The boundary lines have fallen for me in pleasant places;
surely I have a delightful inheritance.
7 I will praise the LORD, who counsels me;
even at night my heart instructs me.
8 I have set the LORD always before me.
Because he is at my right hand,
I will not be shaken.
9 Therefore my heart is glad and my tongue rejoices;
my body also will rest secure,
10 because you will not abandon me to the grave,
nor will you let your Holy One see decay.
11 You have made known to me the path of life;
you will fill me with joy in your presence,
with eternal pleasures at your right hand.